I cry out to God; yes, I shout. Oh, that God would listen to me! When I was in deep trouble, I searched for the Lord. All night long I prayed, with hands lifted toward heaven, but my soul was not comforted. Has the Lord rejected me forever? Will he never again be kind to me? Is his unfailing love gone forever? Have his promises permanently failed? But then I recall all you have done, O Lord ; I remember your wonderful deeds of long ago. O God, your ways are holy. Is there any god as mighty as you? You are the God of great wonders! You demonstrate your awesome power among the nations.
Psalms 77:1-2, 7-8, 11, 13-14 NLT
When I was younger there was a song that helped me through tough times by reminding me that in every problem and harsh situation, there is an opportunity to see God’s greatness.
“I’ve had some good days
I’ve had some hills to climb
I’ve had some weary days
And some sleepless nights
But when I look around
And I think things over
All of my good days
Outweigh my bad days
So I won’t complain
God has been good to me
He’s been so good to me
More than this whole world
Could ever be
He dried my tears away
Turned my midnight into day
So I say Thank You Lord
I won’t complain by the latePaul Jones
I have never heard of days like these and I’ve never experienced situations like these. There are times that I feel abandoned by the God I’ve served the majority of my life.
Unlike Asaph, whose Psalm I shared above, I felt I caused God to abandon me. King David felt the same way.
My God, my God, why have you abandoned me? I groan in prayer, but help seems far away.
Psalms 22:1 NET
King David also wrote:
Once I was young, and now I am old. Yet I have never seen the godly abandoned or their children begging for bread. Psalms 37:25 NLT
In the King James version, instead of the godly abandoned it reads the righteous forsaken but the sentiment is the same; God won’t leave the godly, the righteous. More times than I like to admit, I don’t feel I’m godly or righteous. Is that when I feel abandoned? Yes.
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9 KJV
I mean that you have been saved by grace through believing. You did not save yourselves; it was a gift from God. It was not the result of your own efforts, so you cannot brag about it. Ephesians 2:8-9 NCV
When I read the bible I am redeemed. When I feel abandoned, the scripture reminds me of the love of God. While my own efforts can’t save me, and I recognize that is why when I haven’t done my best I feel abandoned, I’m reminded that God loves me, so I want to do my best to please him.
It’s impossible to please God without faith because the one who draws near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards people who try to find him. Hebrews 11:6 CEB
In the King James version instead of try to find him it reads diligently seek him which makes it more emphatic.
My conclusion is like the song says, I have good days but I also have hills to climb; I have weary days and sleepless nights, but God is good to me. Adversity can make us stronger when we’re pressing toward something. What seems like a dead end could be an opportunity to be creative. Broken hearts are painful but it can be a learning experience; it can reveal your strengths and your flaws so you can move on wiser. I may not know how to make my situation better right now, but I believe God knows what’s best for me, so I won’t complain.